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It’s Been Ten Years: My Eating Disorder Story
A few days ago, I stepped on the scale and realized something: I have been dealing with this eating disorder for ten years. TEN YEARS! I couldn’t believe it.
And that was probably the longest I had ever spent on a scale. I was just staring at my weight, trying to wrap my head around the fact that this all started when I was a junior in high school — and the fact that high school was ten years ago.
After a rough volleyball season, I decided to lose weight. I wasn’t obese or even overweight, but I was on the heavier side of the weight range for my height. With the help of my mom, who was also losing weight, I lost 20 pounds, no problem! But I began to struggle when I hit a plateau. It led to an eating disorder.
Eating Disorder (n.): any psychological disorder characterized by abnormal eating habits
For the rest of my junior and senior years I struggled with everything — starving myself, binge eating, and emotional eating. I even tried to throw up meals a few times. The worst part of it was that I linked being skinny with being popular and having a boyfriend. Like hitting a certain weight would solve all my “problems.”
One misconception about eating disorders is that they are solely about eating. It’s also about the struggle to love yourself, take care of yourself, or…
